show me the way ;

5/05/2008

~ 9:12 AM ~

I feel sad when he tells me that i don't love him.
In fact, I love him the most that i could give up everything just for him.
A silly thinking indeed; but it was in fact my thinking.

Maybe is because of me that I do not have confidence in him and to believe in him that caused so much unhappiness.

Maybe it's just my emotional random mood that caused me to utter things that i don't usually utter.

Maybe it's just spices added to our relationship.

Maybe it's just me who doesn't know what love is all about.

Maybe it's just me who have never grown matured from this relationship.

Maybe it's just me who has not grown stronger and cries so easily.

Maybe it's just me who loves him but does not show it out.

Maybe it's just us who wants more from each other now.

Boo! I need some thoughts again about our relationship -- how can we make it stronger? Not supposed to think of such things at the moment due to exams. But, nevertheless, i can't escape from those thoughts. =(

4/17/2008

~ 5:49 PM ~

This is the song I love.

"You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides"

Exams are just round the corner and my prelims ain't that impressive. Of course, this makes me more determined to strive for my desired results and that comes with exam stress =D.

Ancient pic took when we are still friends.

**I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides**

9/07/2007

~ 12:36 AM ~

Haha.. Oh Wells.. Miss Gao has been complaining about dust in my blog.. * Clear away dust + cob webs* .. Basically.. I don't feel a need to update le bah.. Just simply crazily in love.. Meeting up with friends.. Work Work.. and ya! my sch is starting next week.. many many many sch admin stuffs to prepare.. My life is quite monotonous revolving around those above.. Haha.. but afterall.. all's worth it.. I am satisfied! Pics for treats :

End of pics.. Will update more when i am reali free!!.. =)

6/26/2007

~ 6:26 PM ~

Oh wells.. it has been six months that we are together.. laughing and having fun at our hearts out.. with cheeky eric and crappy serene .. the combination seems powerful.. isnt it?... we spent it on both days.. our usual sunday and of course him taking a sweet dae off to accompany me on a mondae.. both are spent worthwhile of course with the surprises i get everytime i see him.. just cant enuff of him though.. =D .. pictures speaks louder than words and here it goes.. =D

Slacking at Mac with our prizes

Us on the "big big" Euro wheel .. =D

Our teddy bear named "Bear Bear"

At Vivo enjoying the night scenery

Dearie =D

Mi =D

Picture of the day !!

This marks the end of our week together and looking forward to more more more weeks ahead !!

6/17/2007

~ 3:56 PM ~

A portrait of us when we chanced upon this machine which we have searched for ages and cost onli 3 bucks.. lol ... oh god i missed him so much le after oni a few hours passed and todae as usual.. i am rotting at home.. but yesterdae was another fun and tiring dae with dearie.. we went to great world city... it was not exactly a fun and nice place to shop until we chanced upon this portrait machine.. i was so uber excited la.. ahah.. watched Fantastic Four.. was a nice movie though.. but ending was just as expected.. then we shopped at orchard whereby we had a great walk and my legs are like in pain after a long journey.. ended our dae at the arcade when i played the Cooking Mastery 2 .. wow.. thought that it would be a boring game but unfortunately it cheered both of us up and gave us a great headache .. haha.. but fun la.. went home via train and on the train, i was deadbeat and leaned against him.. he said "I am like ya sleeping package -- arms as pillow, body as bolster and chest as bed" ... so comfy la.. because his standing position was nice.. two hands holding onto the handle and leaning against the pole.. haha.. that moment made mi feel so secured la!!.. before we alighted, i saw this auntie smiling at mi.. she must have felt the same as mi.. feeling so secured.. haha.. todae he has duty and i can only see him next sundae.. haha.. but but but.. i felt happy still and not anything.. just one word again -- CONTENTED! =D

6/13/2007

~ 5:11 PM ~

Love is something no one can explain, including mi!

Some things will never be the same once it's gone . . .

But one thing for sure . . a new lease of beginning will await . . .

=D

6/11/2007

~ 7:36 PM ~

His smile.. His laughter.. I am mesmerized ! =D